a new beginning

	CT’09	Promos	CT1	CT2
Physics	B	B	S	?
Chem	D	D	U	?
Math	C	B	B	?
Music	B	B	D	?
GP	B	E	D	?

That’s my life thus far. I think I can safely say I’m the worse performing student in my class, especially after my dismal performance in CT1. Why is it going this way?

Commitments is just a convenient scapegoat. February-March was music fest. Okay fine. March-April was Chamber concert where I stayed back almost every night. Fine.

BUT WHAT THE F*** WAS I DOING IN MAY?

I had no excuse there. I wasted the entire term 2. I did not submit a single technique during April and May, did not do a single tutorial and did not hand in a single Math and Chem assignment. I think by that time I was so behind in the syllabus that I just kept avoiding my work. I did not understand a single thing at all, and I couldn’t bring myself to face reality and just took a cowardly avoidance approach.

I keep telling myself I want to do well, but its always all talk and no action. I kept thinking that there’s still time, I have June to do the catching up, I can do it, it will all be okay, but in the end.. I just get myself more and more screwed. And even amidst music fest, people like Bon still got his A for Math, almost got an A for music, and did decently well for Physics as well.

I really had no excuse.

I think no other person in rj is in the same plight as me now: I’m the only H3 music compo major who is doing 2 technique sets. The rest of them either have no H3 or are doing one technique and lieder set. And I’m still holding a job that will end only in about mid September after I see my student through his grade 4 cello exam.

3 more compositions to go: 2 techniques and 1 free compo. And I probably have to keep editing and make multiple drafts for my remaining 6 techniques. One million topics to study for the four subjects, and there’s still a gargantuan H3 essay to tackle.

Now I need either a miracle, or immense discipline. I’ll opt for the latter, and I really believe I can do it.

Hong Rui has been dormant for the past 15 months. And now he is awake.

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

	CT’09	Promos	CT1	CT2	Prelims	A-levels
Physics	B	B	S	?	A	A
Chem	D	D	U	?	A	A
Math	C	B	B	?	A	A
Music	B	B	D	?	A	A
GP	B	E	D	?	B	A
H1 Chinese	A	A	-	-	-	A
PW	-	-	-	-	-	A
H3 Music	-	-	-	-	-	at least a Merit :)

See the awesome coundown timer at the side? Its time to start mugging everyone! :D Jiayou!