There's no two ways about it. You just have to mug like Evan and Benni.

The first 2 papers I received today killed all my spirits. E for GP and D for Music paper. Okay I cannot complain about GP because I did not study for it at all. But I did spend a lot of time on music and that grade almost brought tears to my eyes.

Almost..

So I wanted to vent my frustuation after that, and luckily there was PE x) I guess I just went all out and played to win, and I think our team doubled the other team's score hehe :P Okay but I need to stop being so violent and understand that RJ is different from RI. Like bruising Charlotte's knee the other time and knocking TingFang off her feet today.. ugh so sorry ppl! :-x Hope you guys are alright :)

I was in no mood to listen during GP lesson today. Entered music class without lunch, and endured that 3 hours barely surviving on the wafers that Mr Yu rewarded us with. Sigh, Mr Yu showed us 3 imba essays today. Willette's one was good, Mich one was impressive, Kiwan's one left me speechless.

I need to stop daydreaming and coming up with all sorts of ideas deviating from the norm. Fancy mentioning that Shostakovich sounds like Bach in the commentary, and then leaving out Bartok, Shostakovich, Prokofiev, Rachmaninoff, Kabalevsky and Khachaturian completely in the second essay on Nationalism, and finally arguing that Shostakovich is NOT nationalistic in the last essay. Hong Rui, if you want to be creative, you do it in your compo, don't do it in your papers.

Sigh.


Results have been disappointing, but as Benlow said, I did justice to myself and my own desires and ambitions. I chose to spend the entire September on my compo, I knew my promos will be screwed, and I chose to do it that way.

And I don't regret it.

I know that ten years from now, I will look back at my compo and smile to myself, being glad that I have composed such a work ten years ago. It's something that having 4 As cannot replace.