Ok I've sorted out my thoughts.

Basically if you're wondering about the random tags on the right, approximately 12 hours ago I posted a 1865-word post about Orientation, particularly myself having a particular crush on a girl and my experience over the 5 days.

Reason why I placed it up here was because I did want to hear some of your comments, and actually I was slightly hoping that "she" might actually see the post too. But I've sorted out my thoughts already, and I've decided to call it an end.

Just friends =D

I blame myself for not seizing every chance I'm blessed with and immerse myself more in orientation. But I've sorted my thoughts, and I've decided to let this go. Lets not dwell in it anymore. I'm just going to cherish while I can, and spend this 2 years with no regrets.

Moving on..
I got a spanking cool new cool idea!
I'm going to audition for Piano Ensemble =D

I've actually longed for a change in environment and I'm already finding Chamber a little boring =P Especially after I spent 2 more rehearsals with the absence of JonShin, Jinghui and co, and instead with Yong Zhiyi and company, I find that I'm not that enthu towards Chamber anymore. But initially I thought that Wednesday is CCA day, but I've just heard from YunXi yesterday that Piano ensemble rehearsals are actually on Tuesday.

So I'm going to audition for it =D I missed the first round, so now I'm going in with the JAE students, and hopefully I can make it. I'm really looking forward to join Piano Ensemble, and I think I might even actually quit Chamber if I get in. (Ideally I try to balance both first and see if I can cope)

Annie, don't tell Yiyang okay! =P I'm still a very committed person in whatever I choose to stay with. 400% attendance record in RI string ensem leh, hur hur I'm damn proud of that.

I'm just somebody who really values friendships and relationships, and I can honestly admit that I have more than once considered joining Chorale, Chinese Orchestra, or Piano ensemble instead of Chamber in RIJC. But I can't sing for nuts, and the Chamber guys will hate me if I become a second Matthew Chua. My cello teacher will kill me too if he finds out that I've quitted Strings.

But now I really hope I can make it into Piano Ensem! (: I think I'm willing to forgo an almost-confirmed section leader post (unless Annie joins in, then things will be fun) and a promising chance to get into the Exco, just to get into a more fun CCA and spend my time enjoyably with friends whom I know are compatible with me.

I just want to spend these 2 years with no regrets. But ideally I hope I can be in both CCAs too.

Piano ensemble <3! I already have so many friends in there! Jon Shin, YunXi, YongYi, Willette and a few more others. Since YunXi got in playing a grade 8 piece, I HOPE I can make it through too.

Wish me luck! =D Practising piano suddenly feels so much more fun.